A Getaway

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h i d i n g   p l a c e s
under a warm shower
among seven pillows
with a cup of latte or cappucino

b a n a n a   +   v e g e m i t e
i have never been a fan of bananas. my mom said that bananas help to reduce stress. i don't really believe it. yet i know 3 guys who like eating bananas and they are an easygoing kind of person. well, at least they more than often appear happy, relaxed, and calm enough to me. and monkeys are always in a jolly mood, bouncing from a tree to another, rite? =)
i reckoned vegemite is yuck!! i tried once in the first month I was here. people said that vegemite is really an aussie stuff. then clare (we happened to be in the same group in the tour to tasmania) taught us how to eat vegemite properly: toast the bread with margarine first, then spread a bit of vegemite afterwards. she said that people didn't like vegemite because they didn't know how to eat it, "they spread it like jam.". christy, the barista in the place where I work, also said the same thing like clare did. but then christy added that vegemite was good, it's a source of vitamin b which made you stressfree. "stressfree" is the key, the powerful word to me.
what's happening between banana and vegemite? i like them now simply because i buy into the "stress relief" thing. yes, and apparently...stress has nothing to do with food, it's on your mind and it's in your heart. btw, am i now being an aussie because i like vegemite? ha ha...you wish...

d o u b l e   u p   y o u r   t i r e d n e s s
i've been wondering lately, which one is more tiring..."to hate" someone or "to be hated" by someone. i haven't found the answer yet. but i know the level of tiredness is at least doubled when you are hating yourself.

Imagine that this world is a HUGE music store...

I was working on my assignment and chatting with my friend in Indo at the same time *don't ask me how I could do that, hahaha...*. Well, actually...he was helping me with the gadget-related stuffs...as always..."Thank you much!!" =) Then we ended up talking about marriage *woiii...it's not like what you think. what were you thinking just now, btw? hehehehehe...*, pacaran, commitment, etc. etc. I dunno how we could go here and there, jumping from one topic to another. Anyway... there I got these pieces... Must admit that I like this analogy better than the "Buying Clothes" one -I'll tell you more about it later. If you like music, or exactly, if you like buying original CDs (not pirated ones), you'll find some truths behind this.

"anyway the decision to run or not is within your hand
if you compare things...you sure going to find the difference" --> sure you do, as when you start to compare things, you're aiming yourself to find differences
"gue selalu bilang ama temen...nyari cw tuh kaya beli cd-musik
kalo elo suka ama artis tertentu...elo akan pasti beli cd-nya
ntah bagus semua lagunya...jelas belum tentu
tp kalo elo suka ama artisnya ya elo harus terima kalo sometimes mereka make a crap song
just remember the good ones" --> and from my experience, after listening to a CD hundreds of times, I always end up loving most (if not all) the songs in that CD. Or at least... I get used to it, listening to the weird tones or silly lyrics repeated over and over again. Or in this case, we're getting used to the "whole" person we choose to be with. And after we get used to it, then we may get bored *oya, how about this boredom? forgot to ask you just now, he he..*. Well, a lousy CD gets me bored easily. But there are songs like Norah Jones' and Phil Perry's that always excites me whenever I hear them.
"mau punya cd yang bagus semua gampang beli aja yang kompilasi
tp sayangnya nyari cw itu susah yang kompilasi..."

Anyway...time to sleep...

Observation

I dunno what's happening with people lately. I thought I'd already used to that cultural thing here. I remember last year, during my first months here, I used to be awfully shocked everytime I saw and heard people on the street or inside the tram got freaked out and shouting at each other. Then the frequency of seeing or hearing that kind of "event" lessened. I dunno whether it did lessen or it's just me who has been numb.

Hmmm...I don't remember if I ever was in one of those frightening moments during the last school break. But it's been few days that those things start to get on my nerves again. On Friday night, I saw young guys swearing to an old tram driver and he replied them in the same manner and it went on and on passing through few tram stops. This afternoon, I was put in the position of eavesdropping when a guy standing behind my seat was talking on his mobile. In total...number of calls received = 1; number of calls made = 1; number of tram stops passed by = approx. 9; number of the "f***" word uttered = infinite. And not to mention the fight we all watched in the middle of the service this evening.

I speculate that these two things might temporarily satisfy or  explain the puzzle. First, the ones who make lots of trouble are young people, and most likely are students as I didn't see or hear those things during break, when trams are much less packed than todays. Second, it's not only me who gets stressed out with this semester starting again...yup, there are more people out there who are burned out to the extreme!!! =)

between men and women

When my friend found that the pram she's pushing with extra care through a narrow space between a parked car and a wall was barely able to pass through that space, my other friend (it's a SHE) tried to help her by ensuring that the pram has a smooth slide. A guy was standing near them. And he came up with an idea of lifting the pram up over the car (yea...guys always come up with practical solutions, I wonder where those ideas come from... ;p). Those two women (not a girl anymore lha ya...) said they're alright. And the guy said, "Ah...strong woman..." Then one of them kiddingly replied, "Yes, strong and independent woman!"  I was pretty (and am very) tired at that time that I  simply watched what they're doing without thinking (my brain didn't allow me to do another thinking activity, enough for today...he he...). But what she said directly punched into my attention. It struck me in a way that's unexpected. Then for a while, I worked out that line in my head in an almost muttering fashion.

"Yea, the word "strong" and, especially, "independent" sound so grandiose in that sense. They sound powerful! They sound like a previously-impossible dream that's already come into reality!! They sound like a declaration of the new threathening phenomenon-hey, watch out, guys!!! Yet, I sensed a little pathetic thing in those words, or actually in that line. It sounds like you're trying to boost up your confidence... you're trying to teach yourself that you are equally capable to work with men, compete with men, and beat men, in the men's world...you're trying to let yourself unaware of your inner call."

Yup, that's pretty much about it...I didn't let the thinking take more than few blinks that time. And I won't continue it either now. Something's still bothering me... if women now ARE so much stronger and more independent than they were ever before, does it mean that there's no room left for vulnerability (whether intended or not) anymore?

Now I have to force my brain to think for at least a couple hours. Got the Technical Analysis and Trading thing tomorrow... straight from 9am to 4 pm!!! Hhhhh...

Interesting!

I am chatting with my friend. He's in Japan. We're talking about this and that, especially about
"gebetan". And he gave me some advices regarding the summer fling of mine. I know he's not in a serious mode when he typed it as he's just mocked me for the way I told the story. Well, in fact, there were no sophisticated words in his language. But I found it so...right... "What a great analogy!!!" I said. Here's some bits of our conversation :

He says : tancep gas dong
I say : ...gue khan decided mo ngejombloe dulu aja
He says : lampu udah ijo
I say : karena gue kayanya masih enjoy living my life alone
He says : o yah? sampe kapan?
I says : ga tau juga seh sampe kapan...
He says : yah udah jangan tancep gas dulu
I say : jadi sekarang, gue mikirnya...ya we'll see aja...
He says : masuk gigi pere dulu
I say : hahahahahha
He says : jangan pasang rem tangan
I say : yoi
I say : hahahahahaha
I say : jadi pelajaran nyetir gini
He says : kalo jalannya mudun kan maju ndiri
I say : what a great analogy!!!
He says : makannya jangan pake outomatic

I dunno how you guys may think of those words. But when you read it slowly, you'll find a deeper meaning of them.

Crazy summer days

It's damnnn... hot!!! Currently reaches 35.2C at my place. Ermm...no, it's just gone up to 35.3C with 36% humidity. O, God... Even the wind is hot too! The weather forecast says it can go as far as 43C max. But it usually happens to be higher than the max forecast. It feels like a day before the New Year's day again, when the crowd were lining up, trying to save some place for the fireworks in the middle of 41 or 42C temperature. Urghh...cannot imagine how sweaty and sticky it was. I didn't belong to that crowd, though, as I was with the elite who's willing to spend circa 50 bucks per person to wine and dine various 'royal cuisine', such as a gaeng kari that tastes like my mom's. I wasn't the diner, sadly. But I was quite cheered up by a family who recognized me. They've been there before and I served them exactly at the same table...and they remembered me! They're very nice mom and dad with a daughter and a son. And they didn't even bother to join the crowd to watch the fireworks. So as consolation, I considered myself a part of this other group, who thinks that a new year's eve is just another last day of the month which is, by consensus, underlined to be the point leading to a brand new page.

And by the way, it's climbing to 35.6C now. Err wait...35.7C, I mean.

Saturday afternoon's bits

I watched a bit of the "Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure" this afternoon. The movie was...okay... ermmm...quite amusing, perhaps, considering Keanu's geeky acting =) But what I found interesting from the show is that we, who live in the later generations, can see what's going on in the earlier times -the people and their 'fashion' and their day-to-day activities, the houses and neighborhood, the technology, culture and art, etc. And there's no way we can be as knowledgeable about the lives in the future. However, we, in fact, are only able to do or make things which can significantly affect or change the future, and not the past of which we have the access to 'all' information. Isn't that weird??? =)

Kill Bill

For those who are not in any holiday mode (read: stressed out), you better check this out!! Extremely hilarious!!! (you must understand if you ever watched a pirated DVD using a hi-tech DVD player)

http://www.Break.com/articles/killbilldvd.html

begetakk..begetakk..begetakk..begetakk.. =p

twisted by the puzzle

bought on one Sunday afternoon (Dec 4, 2005) - started on Sunday night and the following nights (after work) to beat the before-results-announcement insomnia - finished on Wednesday morning (Dec 7, 2005) - shot (by request) on Dec 21, 2005

the box.....

the puzzle.....